s.n.o.w.y

snow | 5th Sep 2006, 10:24 PM | daily scribble | (148 Reads)

My life is getting messy but I am just incapable to do anything to avoid it except sitting here, scratching the words, and at last putting my brain into nothingness. When does it start and when would it end, or there isn't a way out for me actually, even I do struggle to get free. Am I sacrificing for your expectation rather than my desire? Am I trying my best to please you instead of making myself happy? Perhaps it is because I keep emphasizing to myself that you are the most important person in my life that I couldnt do anything to let you down, I should adjust the depression on my own.

What can I say? In deed, you are not pushing me, you are supporting me and encouraging me, but why everything you did aggravates my anxiety, it is not the first time I am worried about to disappoint you but it is the first time I feel I am gonna let you thwart in your expectation on me.

After grousing for a post's time, I am fine.

I should trust myself.

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her story

snow | 2nd Sep 2006, 12:16 PM | eyes on the world | (113 Reads)

Once I described this news as "unbelievable", but I become wordless after reading her statement to the public about the eight-year hostage.

To the public, it is naturally a serious, curious event but for the girl, it is still a long way to recover and perhaps never be able to recover despite she appears to be much stronger than people expected, it is somehow bizarre.

8-year kidnap: Accomplices hunted

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九月了

snow | 1st Sep 2006, 10:54 PM | sentimental things | (107 Reads)

又是很想走開一段日子的感覺. 每每到很累很大壓力遇到瓶頸的時候就急切着逃避. 但總是難以如願.

很多書很多人, 都描述着各自出行的經歴. 我突然發覺自己生活得那麼苍白無力.

It is due to my greediness, it means to be.

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snow | 29th Aug 2006, 10:14 PM | sentimental things | (78 Reads)

謝謝媽媽的理解, 只是心里很不舒服.

快樂原來有點遥遠. 要讓自己愛的人快樂, 自己才能眞正快樂啊.

最大的願望是不讓愛我的人失望.

某個晚上我夢見自己要一個人走很長的路去找一樣不知名的东西.

有時我覺得很累很累.

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somewhere here

snow | 19th Aug 2006, 12:16 PM | daily scribble | (84 Reads)

I prefer here, honestly.
I am lazy to pack up and move, honestly.

But finally I withdraw my support from msn space and I wish it is not too late to make this decision. It seems msn space is the one I have spend the most of time in trying to manage it, but it just doesnt work out at the end.

I still could not identify the definition of "blogging" after having my first blog established more than two years ago, and switching between different server providers quarterly during the period. Once I felt blog was somewhere to stock sentiments and excessive emotions, but I changed, time lead me to a more accurate point of view. I am not fond of animation, slideshow, blog decoration and I am just happened to love writing.

That's why I am being here.

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